what am i ???

[spicy]

to make a long story short i am 37 male single. i lost all my desires and passions to the other sex

long while  ago and i am surly not homosexual .. i just get disgusted of watching any other

humans buddy parts  or smelling them specially things like sensitive  parts or feet

no matter haw pretty the woman or girl is.. or who she is  ... i just dont feel any need

to be near them or interact with them .. i used to like it but i dunno .. wtf happened ? lol

  :-[  and what dose that makes me? not a Straight  not a homo ...  a neutral ?

like an alien or something

[Megashrap]

In desperate need of women who bathe regularly?

[Caid Ivik]

to make a long story short i am 37 male single. i lost all my desires and passions to the other sex

long while  ago and i am surly not homosexual .. i just get disgusted of watching any other

humans buddy parts  or smelling them specially things like sensitive  parts or feet

no matter haw pretty the woman or girl is.. or who she is  ... i just dont feel any need

to be near them or interact with them .. i used to like it but i dunno .. wtf happened ? lol

  :-[  and what dose that makes me? not a Straight  not a homo ...  a neutral ?

like an alien or something

you are a potential reader of this - http://faculty.risd.edu/faculty/dkeefer/web/ncp/schopen.pdf ;D

[Egeides]

A disillusioned guy? Everything went cynic and without taste maybe

[Megashrap]

But I bet you love the hell out of you PC don't you Spicy? ;D ;D

[CSyril]

interesting...with the information given, it appears that perhaps you may have had a negative experience(s) that you subconsciously disassociate from your current state of mind.  It is very odd to me, for a man to have those feelings regarding anyone of the opposite sex, particularly if the individual is attractive, especially since we all know that the male form is universally known to be a very sexual and visual creature.  Perhaps some in depth sole searching is in order...

[spicy]

Asexual. If nothing arouses you.

But you 've only mentioned girls. There could be other things that arouse you..

yes i read about asexual now i think i am like that  :'( ,,,, because i havent had sex since

1996

and no i dont like dogs lol ( nothing else  is arousing me )

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In desperate need of women who bathe regularly?

its a good one as a joke.. but if i want to answer you from the real feelings i get

i mean its not the bad smell am talking about hehe like if i stick around with pigs (oink)

i mean i just dont want to see anyone naked and see there buddy parts or even touch them

i just didnt explain my self well. i just  dont want to interact with other people buddy's even if they smell good i just dont find it appealing ... i like the smell of a flower the taste

of an apple but not human buddy's any more  ...

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you are a potential reader of this - http://faculty.risd.edu/faculty/dkeefer/web/ncp/schopen.pdf ;D

i am a poor English reader and every one knows that .. am sorry but i cant go through all

that book .. a summery  from you about it maybe ? thanks

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A disillusioned guy? Everything went cynic and without taste maybe

yes you are right also.. i live alone i dont have  friends or work or believes

i would give you a 10 out of 10 on this one  Egeides  yes i remember you .. you are the nice

one ....

So ya

Thought ya

Might like to go to the show.

To feel the warm thrill of confusion

That space cadet glow.

Tell me is something eluding you, sunshine?

Is this not what you expected to see?

If you wanna find out what's behind these cold eyes

You'll just have to claw your way through this disguise.

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But I bet you love the hell out of you PC don't you Spicy? ;D ;D

no ... the pc is to play games only .. i like the games ...  and i will comment on what

you mean in the next  quote

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interesting...with the information given, it appears that perhaps you may have had a negative experience(s) that you subconsciously disassociate from your current state of mind.  It is very odd to me, for a man to have those feelings regarding anyone of the opposite sex, particularly if the individual is attractive, especially since we all know that the male form is universally known to be a very sexual and visual creature.  Perhaps some in depth sole searching is in order...

this is the best reply ..  yes i loved someone long time ago 1995 .. before this happens to me

she berated me so bad when i was so physically in need for her i cried so hard  from the pain             

  of loneliness i wanted no one other than her .. i feel confused without her

maybe my buddy decided not to need anyone anymore and to be independent from evil humans

coz they only seek greed and hurt...

then these days i see porn everywhere everyone old and young is trying to show there

sensitive parts  i got drifted for a while like scar said until i saw haw it consumes

the buddy and the soul  and it turn humans to slaves and violent beasts of flesh

and that what started me to feel so disgusted seeing so many people without dignity

or respect to their flesh or to their privacy ... i open the tv to see that one legs

i change the channel and the other one showing finger tows ..

in the street they ware no clothes .. in the pc its time for cams horror ..

every kid in town is a strip dancer now lol .. show this and show that and

the spam gose on .. were is the sweet love ? and the romance ? and the feelings

are gone ? why? because its time to masturbate again ..

i refuse to be the fuel of this machine .. i dont want to see fingers or legs or bloody

other stuff it just makes me sick..  :O

So, so you think you can tell

Heaven from Hell,

Blue skies from pain.

Can you tell a green field

From a cold steel rail?

A smile from a veil?

Do you think you can tell?

Did they get you to trade

Your heroes for ghosts?

Hot ashes for trees?

Hot air for a cool breeze?

Cold comfort for change?

Did you exchange

A walk on part in the war,

For a lead role in a cage?

How I wish, how I wish you were here.

We're just two lost souls

Swimming in a fish bowl,

Year after year,

Running over the same old ground.

What have we found

The same old fears.

Wish you were here.

[spicy]

who isnt??  only thing keeping me alive is my workout running 3 miles everyday keeps

me breathing and keeps my buddy organs in functional stats ,, or i would suffocate with my

own weight  like wales on the sand  from sleeping on my back 24/7 on the bed with the tv in my front

and the pc on my left ..

[spicy]

lucky,,, anyway i prefer to be depressed than to be this asexual thing.. it sounds weird 

[CSyril]

Spicy - So how long did you date this individual?  Was she ever into you as much as you are still into her?  Also, why porn?  Porn has nothing to do with act that occurs between two people who are in love.  Porn is the actual act of sex and nothing else.  Sex without love could be construed as rather disgusting if you really think about it.  So your feelings may not be that unusual.

...just a side note...where are you hanging out where you see porn lurking around every corner?

[spicy]

at 1995 i was working on a 5 stars cruise boat when i met that gorgeous Brazilian girl

she looked so rich  with those golden credit cards as i was working in accounting

i played her a little bit but at those days i was so high on dope and i never really paid

attention to womans or take them seriously as i usually am ...

she got hooked to me in a way because am a looker and i didnt really mind her invitation

to join her table with her friend (girl also) we had champaign then a slow dance

then the next thing i know we are both naked in my room ...

she was supposed to leave the next morning but i had a high role in the boat so i made

her stay for 2 more weeks.. and thats it. i had 100s of girls in the ship i never

paid attention to her.. i remember her telling me she is in love but the drugs

and the violence of the sex never really  gave my feelings a chance i admit beeing

a predator to her ,,, then she left to her country i never really cared

then 2 months later    she called me to say she is pregnant i didnt know

what to do i didnt have a house as i was living on that ship i was so

young and  didnt know her well,, i told her to lose it then she refused

we both talked a lot on the phone and got depressed

i started to love her at that time and i felt the pain i made to her

i left the ship and went to the city to make a home for her but i faild

i was broke and homeless i kept calling her i told her what happened

and i needed her so much she said she will come to see me

she came from spain i took her in a vacation to the sea side i was like

dreaming but the dream ended so fast and she had to leave again

because i was helpless,, no home or work

i asked her to take me with her to spain but she told me she hates me because

i didnt love her or want the baby and that am not a man

and she just came to revenge from me...

then after that i took high doses of drugs  i was away from  realty for years

and i never really talked to any girls from that date ....

porn is everywhere tv channels, chat rooms, street hookers .. even what is not porn

nudity and sex is in everything we do .. movies,music,ads,,

i keep avoiding it but i was just saying that i hate it a lot unlike most people..

[Mihail]

Mid-life crisis, maybe?

I really don't know what to tell you - I'm only a 15 year old teenager with more than enough sex drive in him, enough that it is annoying alot of the time. But are you still attracted to women as people and personalities? Alright, you don't want to have sex - but maybe you still enjoy how a woman looks like, how she smells, etc.

Do you WANT to like women? Maybe you should just try to meet some more women, mature women, who aren't interested in sex as much as in a relationship. Maybe you don't need sex, but rather a close, emotional friendship with a woman.

But I think if you answer the question about whether you want to be/are attracted to women, we could give you better advice.

You could also go see a therapist or a psychologist - it's not your fault if you were traumatised emotionally, and you shouldn't be embarrassed about going to see a person who can help you much better than a few people halfway across the world talking to you on a message board. Are you a social person? If not, maybe you should socialise more, start going to clubs or bars or something like that - who knows, you might meet someone you really like! And maybe you just need to get out and about - airplane tickets being as cheap as they are, maybe you could go on vacation to a European country or something like that. And most of all, you should stop smoking pot if you're still smoking. It's great and relaxing, I know, but too much of it and you turn into a lazy, bored stoner who does nothing all day except sit around the house and watch TV. Not saying that you are one of them, but pot won't really help you alot with the problem you have now.

Just throwing out ideas here, I really don't know too well what I'm talking about, like I said - I'm only 15 years old and have a lot to learn...

[spicy]

yes good mind man.. ure talk is nice .. i am not attracted to them in anyway and i dont

want them or their buddy functions or their kids near me..

i respect them as humans not different than the way i am and i have no hate to them

what so ever or any feeling of bad will ... they are to me just independent individuals

i see them i like them and socialize with them.. i just dont feel the need to enter

to their buddy's with my probe lol or mix any fluids if you get the idea

just thinking of it hurts me in a way ..am just having those strange thoughts latley

about life and human buddy and our complicated organs its so depressing to me

as i always ends with ideas of illness and blood and death,, i see that this is what

we are made of..and i dont like my self or my life and from here i dont

want to interact with other human organs or have any new kids

because i dont want them to live lol..

i dont want therapy because i dont want them anymore  its not that i want them and i cant

even if i went to heaven i dont want them or their stuff near me i just

find them bloody boring and am not interested in their flesh ...or their games

i stoped doping 10 years ago  and  dont miss it at all  i dont smoke or drink

and am a runner in optimal buddy fitness ... 

[Mihail]

Well then maybe you really are asexual. :) And if thinking about it makes you depressed, then try to stop thinking about it, I guess. :) Really - that's the only advice I can give you. Maybe find something - another hobby to take up your time and thoughts. Maybe work out more. I dunno - but hey, you've still got your whole life ahead of you to experience the world, no need to be depressed!  :)

[Ge wolf]

:O  u think u hve problems... i still cant get the old dune2k to run on my new pc... its a dell and ....  at least it dosnt stink  i guess...

(some of us like that smell dont we,,,)

dont suppose u have any ideas st to my predicament... ??? ???

[spicy]

why dune2k get emp and come online

[spicy]

i passed throw a stage were in my middle east society all the womans in my age are technically

got married .. and the one who didnt are either harmfully ugly or lesbians ....

when i try to talk to girls in chat which is almost the last place i have to meet people

they are almost all kids and even when i hide my real age to talk with some 25 yo girls

i tell you god help the young men of you .. this generation of girls  are much worse

than we even got ... first thing they ask haw much money you got .. i mean you need

to be some kinda god to talk to them ... i was talking to a girl a while ago and

she seemed very educated and young .. and attractive .. few days later she sent

me an sms telling me  i can have sex with her for money .. i was so shocked i mean

i never paid for sex and i never think of sex as something with a material value ...

talking to woman and girls is becoming a torturous act to do .. they become so horrible

and i dont care for the things they think ov any more ....

i dont blame them tho .. the material stats in these middle east country's are suffering

really bad with all the wars going on .. and the religion forbid you from having normal

relations out side marriage but then no buddy is marrying these days and the girls

are left to rut ...

all this problems and my age makes me weaker toward talking anyone into a relation

i think my mind is trying to settle it as a bad thing .. and to get over with it ..

its like maybe when u see a nice apple but you cant pay for it you would

just say .. ohh then am sure there is worms in it ,, yukkky 

but really i dont think its worth the trouble .... am really not attracted to human buddys

any more     

[CSyril]

You are sounding like a beaten down, runaway slave after getting caught by his slave master.  You

[nemafakei]

"Or you can reach out and grab one."

...

OK, I'm a little bit concerned about where this metaphor is going.

Yes, there are women who sell sex. Some don't choose to but have no other option, some have no compunctions about it.

But bear in mind that very few women choose prostitution. No matter how much it bothers you, please don't take a dim view of all women based on some you meet in internet chat rooms.

That's not to say you must go out there and find yourself a 'good apple'. If you're happiest on your own, great! But if you're unhappy, consider finding a fun/social activity, and do it for its own sake, not to find someone to have intimate relations with. It may be that you still want to be social, but you don't particularly want to get intimate with anyone. It may be that you find that by dealing with your depression, you feel better able to relate to people both socially and intimately.

[Megashrap]

You might also want to consider MOVING WHERE PEOPLE ARE!.That helps also.  :P ;D ;D

[spicy]

ill go play fable the lost chapter  its an amazing game

[Dunenewt]

$picy reproduces by splitting in half.

[spicy]

i laid some eggs yesterday 

                              :D :D :D

                              :D :D :D

                              :D :D :D

[gunner154]

I'd supposed you haven't had much emotional contact with many to begin with, and you might just be getting a little too used to being alone. That's likely due to running into the kind of girls you described.

By the way, try not to take Pink Floyd lyrics too seriously...

[spicy]

By the way, try not to take Pink Floyd lyrics too seriously...

i take their music quite seriously which makes me a follower to their words also